:’( A letter from Kim Kibum to Super JuniorJune 24, 2011 at 11:27 am | Posted in kibum | Leave a comment
KIBUM’S MESSAGE TO SUJU MEMBERS.
Eeteuk hyung is like a brother and a father. I have always tried to be a child that he doesn’t have to worry about, even though I know that he feels helpless that I don’t always fit in, but he has always supported me. Sometimes I will even tease that him sacrificing his idol image to be funny is useless, but he knows that I still care a lot for him, and don’t want him to be so tired. And then one day he faced the camera and said while smiling, actually Kibum is the one child I have always worried about, not caring about how many tears he has shed but still shouting my name. He’s even willing to once again sacrifice for my sake. [TN: I’m not sure if he’s referring to himself or what Eeteuk said] Eeteuk hyung, Kibum loves you, and so I will always walk with you to the end.
Heechul hyung, to me, is the most special. At first we couldn’t get along with each other. You didn’t like my informality to you, and I didn’t like you
treating me differently than everyone else. And then fate brought us together, during those days filming Rainbow Romance, I slowly started understanding you, and you started accepting me, and I became Kim Heechul’s favorite dongsaeng. Until today, when I look at everything you’ve done for me, I can only choose to help you along, because that was how you cared for me. When you were in the car accident, and when you had the surgery, when Hankyung hyung wasn’t with you, I was with you. So Heechul hyung, you have always used your strength and persistence to protect me, so Heechul hyung, Kibum won’t disappoint you.
Hankyung hyung, I feel like we are very similar. For a dream, you traveled far from your home, while I for my dream, returned to my home. But we were both far from our families, had no friends, and had to start over. It was a lot like returning to those three years when I first arrived in America, I didn’t have friends and I couldn’t communicate. Those days were hard to endure. Hankyung hyung would smile a warm smile every time, and his strength made me ashamed of myself. Hankyung hyung, those days being in the middle [not fitting in] were hard, right? Charging forward and retreating were both difficult. I think I understand you, and I think you understand me as well. We are both two children who wander for our dreams. Hankyung hyung, even with everything going on now, can we still walk together? I think we will never give up.
Yehsung hyung, I admit that you can sometimes make people speechless. You’re always making jokes and spasming no matter where we are or what mood we’re in. But Jongwoon hyung, your voice is what I envy the most. I know you are SJ’s irreplaceable main vocal. But to create that funny atmosphere you hurt your idol image. Actually, away from the camera, you are very charming, and you always quietly do your share. The strong little boy from Chungnam has become a reliable mountain. Jongwoon hyung, even though sometimes I’ll forget, but I know you are a big parent of the SJ family. Without you, Teuk hyung wouldn’t be able to withstand it all.
Kangin hyung, no Youngwoon hyung. Everyone says that if there’s a kind mother in a family, then there must be a strict father. You are that strict father. But I know that in actuality your heart is the softest and easiest to pick on. You take up all the burdens yourself, protecting even Teuk hyung. When we were filming the movie you said you were going to work hard for SJ, and really was fighting hard for us, as a person who discarded the idol singer image and has only a face. [aka is human] When we first debuted, I know I was the cover boy, and was in charge of popularity, but now that I think about it, I really wanted you to take care of me, and tell everyone “this is my dongsaeng, an equally excellent actor, he doesn’t just have a pretty face”. Youngwoon hyung, I’ll follow you, and believe you, all the way to the end.
Shindong hyung, happy and chubby Shindong hyung. I know that when we first debuted you had the most pressure, with all the debate about you. What they don’t know is, to choreograph our charming dances, how many all-nighters you pulled. Today, you have already become a 100% talented fellow. While I am proud of you, I feel ashamed, and want to say Shindong hyung thank you, don’t ever say anymore of those “I’m dragging down SJ’s popularity so I’ll quit”. Without you, our dances wouldn’t be as organized and synchronized. Without you, who would rap with us? So you have to wait for me, to once again stand up on that stage with you, and we’ll shout out our name together.
Sungmin hyung, the one in charge of cuteness in SJ. Hehe, aren’t our laughs similar? Fans describe us similarly. You’re a cute rabbit, but have they ever seen you practicing martial arts? Actually, you’re a tough man. Stubborn, and aren’t willing to shed a single tear. When we won the big award at the end of the year, when we were standing at our highest, you watched us all in a crowd, crying, and comforted each one of us, smiling, and refusing to cry. Offstage, you had your head bowed, and i knew you were crying for everything we’ve gone through in the past. Sungmin hyung, you said that you have 6 hyungs, and 6 dongsaengs, so you have to be strong and couldn’t cry. Sungmin hyung is the most overall perfect person, because of you, I feel like I don’t have to worry about anything.
Eunhyuk hyung, hey, Lee Hyukjae! Are you crying again? You’re so silly, a crybaby. Yeah, if you weren’t silly, why would you give up so many chances just to be with your good friends? If you weren’t silly, then why would you slip out to meet with his fans to cheer him on without him knowing when he debuted before you? If you weren’t silly, then you wouldn’t have pretended to be cool and fine but secretly cried for a month. Silly people have their happiness. In SJ, you are the main dancer. This position, no one can take from you. Oh, right, you can also write songs and lyrics. We really can’t see from your appearance that you also have a passionate side. Hey, Lee Hyukjae, like before, divide your raps half and half with me, we can do it together. You have to wait for me. And guys really lose a lot of face when they ccry, okay? Also, don’t lie to me. I have had enough of your “image control”. Remember, you have to wait for me.
Donghae, my Lee Donghae. I won’t call you hyung, because I feel like I’m the hyung, a hyung that should protect you. My Lee Donghae has a pair of unforgettable eyes, your smile is so pure and innocent, causing my ice cold heart to melt in an instant. I still remember when I first came to Korea, a completely foreign environment. It was you who was the first to hold out your hand, it was you who hugged the really scared me. Let’s be brothers forever, okay? Lee Donghae is Kim Kibum’s best friend, I’ll be your hyung okay? When your father died the impact it had on you I can never forget, but I couldn’t spend too much time comforting you, because I have to stick to my work. I can’t let other people look down on us right? Lee Donghae is the kindest person, Teuk hyung said that us two were the two children he trusted the most. When you’re in China, don’t be homesick. Follow Geng hyung, I believe you can do it.
Siwon hyung, I finally got to you. Choi Siwon, are you really an angel? Or did the environment you grew up in not allow you to see evil in the world? You know, you gave me a lot of pressure. While I looked at you I often felt ashamed of myself. I still remember you hanging around the me hiding in the corner, wanting to be my friend. At that time, your face was so sincere, I felt that this world really did have angels. At that time you saved me? Me, a person who came from such a different background and environment, was able to become your friend. Maybe when I’m tired I should do as Kangin hyung suggested, whine and act cute and say I’m tired, and not stick it out all alone. I think Siwon hyung, you would help me right? It’s been decided, I want to rely on you, because your shoulders are the most reliable. Don’t let go, okay?
Ryeowook-ah, the hyung who is only older by a few days, and yet always calls himself the magnae. To me, you are the 100% magnae, a dongseng always needing to be taken care of and cherished. When we first debuted, you were the last one who took Junyoung’s place and joined us. You had the aura of only having trained for a few weeks, but they never saw how much you worked. In such a short time, you went from a cute chubby boy to your current image. How much did you suffer? I only know that you can never gain weight and be like you were before. Ryeowook-ah, without me by your side, is it hard to get used to? Don’t worry and don’t cry, I’m still waiting for you to sing and play piano pieces for me. Kim Ryeowook is the best, SJ’s eternal magnae, we have to be the magnaes that the hyungs would be the most proud of right?
Kyuhyun Cho Kyuhyun I feel that you are the one that causes the hyungs to have the most headaches. A stubborn evil child. Armed with your magnae status, who knows how many times you have picked on the hyungs. But every time I see your smile after your evil plan has been achieved, I’m not angry at all. Because you have finally shown who you really are. As the last member to join SJ, you had a lot of hard times at the beginning, do you still remember? When fans gave you your first present, you had disbelief all over your face. When you sang on stage, you made everyone proud. It was almost like you were born to be in SJ. After that hellish training, you have finally grown up. When you get back to the dorms you purposely ignore your hyungs, and go directly to bed. You really are an evil child. When you dragged your still healing body to give the 2jib a complete stage, I was really worried. Today, you are standing on the stage calling for me, just as we called for you. Because of this, hyung will be back soon. You GameKyu, just wait for my PK with you. Watch me beat you!
Honestly, I never really understood Kibum because he was acting before I became a part of the fandom, but this messages make me love him already :’)
I know this is old, but still. It doesn’t hurt to reminisce. ♥